Ponder

Have not kept up this journal for a while. Truth be told, I just did not feel like it. Too many things to keep up that can eat up all your waking hours and more. Plus the week has been real hot, like 106 fahrenheit these past couple of days. Spring is surely not yielding so fast to summer? We need it to stay a while more. To keep the flowers blooming in the tiny backyard and stave off any more heat.

Carynn was here for 2 weeks and as usual, the room looked like a hurricane passed through it on a daily basis. And the amount of garbage she left behind for us to clear. Life has a way of coming around. Her time will come.

But while she was here, we took some road trips - to Carmel, Stinson Beach and Gilroy. With gas prices the way they are, this short vacation of hers has cost me a bundle.

Moving to another position soon. Asked to post because the powers that be say they needed someone strong in that place. I have mixed feelings. Happy that the leaders recognise what I can bring but sad to leave my team although not all of them have been that fun to work with. My job is not done - I can make more changes, get more of my vision for the team and what we do underway, build a stronger more cohesive team that knows how to move faster, to know who to call and how get more accomplished in a shorter time. But it is not to be. Although I think I have made enough of an impression so my legacy will remain for some time. Some said they wanted to go with me because they want to continue to work with me and did not want to lose me but of course, that's not possible. But who knows... Gratifying that even a business manager and the consultants came when rumors were floating around to ascertain the truth and poke around to see if I would change my mind and stay because there is still so much more to do and it would be a blow to lose me.

This job is going to be very busy which I can handle. But there is likely to be considerable travel. The past year and a half of relatively sedentary living has been a wonderful change from the years of constant travel and I was reveling in it. But fate is fate. I am destined not to be very deskbound.

So tomorrow, I go to Sugarland for 1.5 days of transition with the incumbent. Since my new boss works there, chances are I will get to know Sugarland well. But the days after should be awesome. Off with my mentoring learning group to New Orleans to visit Green Light and then on a helicopter to an offshore platform. How cool is that??? A chance to walk the platform, talk to the riggers, look at how wells are drilled through miles of ocean water and sea bed. Got to take lots of pictures. Going to be hot and humid though. Must remember to bring lots of sunblock.

The half man is growing up fast. He sounds funny sometimes and his forehead is crowded with blackheads, s sure sign of hormonal activity. His pants are all hanging around his ankle and with his durian hair, he looks like "Ah Long" from some back lanes in Geylang. And he rejects all suggestins of getting new pants and a haircut. What can you do with someone who does not want to look decent? But he is still my boy who still sheepishly brings his pillows and bolster and plunks them down beside my bed so he can sleep next to me as he did all his boyhood.

And the girl still does not know if she wants to attend Grad Night. Which leaves me with a dilemma - to volunteer to help or ignore all the emails that asks for help. Oh well, somethings you just don't want to push. It is fine with me if she opts out.